I wrote this blog at exactly 12:21 am on August 18, 2022.
Do you know how much it hurts that you cannot explain yourself without crying? Like, I hate myself for crying too much every time there is an argument. I can't talk properly without sobbing. I hate it when someone can see me crying. I just hate it.
I don't want them to associate me with weakness, because I'm not. I'm still figuring out how to act. I don't even want to be labeled a crybaby.
But crying is my way to cope. I just can’t help it.
Some things just hurt me, especially when people don’t understand my point of view.
I can't explain myself further because I am also bad with words. I can't express myself that much whenever I am talking. I can write it down and imagine it, but I can't vocalize it.
The things I wanted to shout, the things I wanted them to hear, and everything I wanted to vent out, I just can't.
Seriously, I'm getting tired of me being like this.
I'm getting tired of living.
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